Hello Anda!

Hai Hai!!

My darling, 

I left U.....for a few days....

I'm sorry my dearest blog..

U must've missed me....and my nonsense.

Hoho~

Miss me no more!

I'm back!

Ok.

Got sooooo much to blabber here...

tapi aku malas.

So,

uhm...

Just wanna say...

I'm a mess.

Yup.

I'm losing my mind.

Literally.

Thank you PRO.

U gave me all the symptoms.

Oh I'll defeat U!

I WILL!! 

MWAHAHAHA~~ 

Aku Buka Facebook

Aku buka facebook.

Tu jak aku mau cakap.

Kembang kembang~

Semalam kan...

Aku keboringan dan keFeningan membaca nota.

So,

Aku kan...

Aku kan...

Aku sms kawan aku...

Tanya khabar apa semua....

Dia bagitahu lah....

Dia dilanda dilema.

Aku perasan kejap jadi pakar nasihat...

Aku bagi nasihat lah..

Pastu kan..

Ko tau apa dia kata?

"Wah Zen, no one has ever said that to me before... I'm really touched... U give great advice..."

Miahahaha~~

Bangga kejap....

Korang tau tak?

Kalau di tempat kami kan,

orang yang bangga macam ni ada term-term dia sendiri.

Haha~

Seperti contoh...

Kembang Hidung.

And then seterusnya,

Kembang Bontot.

Semakin kembang hidung/bontot tu semakin bangga lah orang tu.....
Ngahahahaha!!

Now to another story.

Since my stress incident,

I haven't had any ice creams yet..

Huhu~~

But I'm thinking of buying it today!

I can already imagine how HAPPY I'll be when I get my ice cream...Sweet sweet ice cream.. The greatest invention man has ever made.....

(Aku x pandai melukis........ngehehehe)

Cut Me Open

I'm angry.

When I'm angry,

I get sad.

And when I get sad,

I get stressed.

And when I get stressed,

I wanna EAT ICE CREAM.

So,

I got out of the library a little bit early at 9.15pm to go get my ice cream at Che Din's.

Sedih.

They don't have any ice cream tonight.

"Tomorrow," that man said, "come back tomorrow."

I DON'T WANT TOMORROW! I WANT IT NOW!! (Wailing and kicking and stomping on the ground like a 10 year old.)

So I got back to my room,

depressed and disappointed.

I find comfort when I open my locked locker...

Inside,

my comforter,

my lover,

my GUITAR.

Yea yea yea I know I said I'm not gonna play for 20 days.

But I was desperate to at least destroy something...

And all I can think of right now are...

My fingers and voice.

After a few plays, (yes I play the guitar)

and a few SCREAM-like singing,

I only managed to destroy people's patience in me.

Hahaha~

Orang tengah study mau exam aku pla melepaskan stress,

apa orang tak marah.

I was ready for someone to come into my room and beat me up.

But no one dared.

Darn.

Come on, hit me!

Punch me!

Kick me!

I won't fight back!!

(That excludes people who knew me personally. U guys are out of the question...)

Lalalala~~

Can't study tonight.

My brain kept blocking any new information,

no matter how hard I tried.

And only by writing these down I feel a little bit better.

A BIT.

Darn these ants.

(Mode bercakap sendiri)

How did U get into my room?

I don't keep any sweet things in my room!

Oh...where did that half-eaten Cadbury came from?

Oh and that KoKo Krunch?

And wait, is that.....KFC's Pocketful? 

(Eye shining, went in closer to inspect.)

Oh darn it's just last week's Hot Dog Bun that I forgot to finish eating..

Oh well.

It still looks good to eat. 

Nyum Nyum~

We-we-we so Excited.

Menyesal beli makanan awal-awal tadi.

Serotonin cepat bertindak membuatkan aku tertidur tym baca nota Cerebral Cortex.

Sempat aku mimpi makan otak manusia otak manusia yang besar gila ni bercakap dengan aku...

Mr. Otak: Zen. I have something U need. (creepy tone)

Aku: What what what O giant delicious ice-cream looking brain! (kesan puasa aiskrim)

Mr. Otak: I know what questions that will be out on Ur exam..

Dengan itu, aku mengeluarkan komputer yang sebijik macam komputer aku tym skulah rendah dulu dari poket. 

Pastu aku on komputer tu.

*Windows 97 startup theme song playing*

Yes! On!

Pastu aku kena tunggu 15 minit untuk habis startup.

Pastu aku buka notepad.

Sedia untuk menaip soalan-soalan bocor dari Mr. Otak.

Tup tup tengok Mr. Otak dah tidur....

Penat menunggu...

Terus tu aku tengok pose Mr. Otak tidur..

Memang serupa dengan Marshmallow yang aku makan 4 tahun lepas.

Tiba-tiba pula air liur aku meleleh...

Aku jalan slow-slow menghampiri Mr. Otak.

Aku kuarkan Katana dari poket seluar aku, sedia untuk menerkam....

Tiba-tiba,

Badan aku bergegar dan aku rebah ke atas tanah.

Macam tiba-tiba ada epilepsy.

Pastu aku nampak dari jauh Mr. Otak sedang ketawakan aku..

Sambil aku buat tarian poco-poco sambil baring tu, aku dapat dengar lagu yang sungguh mengasyikkan...

*Friday, friday, gotta get down on friday~*

Tidaaaaakkkkkk~~~!!!!

Aku terbangun.

Ada orang kol aku.

Cess.....

Baru jak mau bangunkan Mr. Otak minta soalan bocor.......

=p

Marah

Bukan marah.

Jeles?

Ntah.

Marah + jeles.

Benci...

Macam mau buat ini jak ngan diorang tu...

Strap them to a board. Take an axe. Cut of their limbs one by one...I'll ask questions first, then I'll cut....

Tie them by the neck to an electric self made pole that spins them round and round. And while spinning I'll burn them. I'm the fat one in this picture wearing tudung, smiling and enjoying the view........Even if it's dangerous.. Haha

YEA I'LL CUT OFF UR HEAD U SEDUSA!!

(Dalam mood mau bunuh orang.....Don't come near me....)

Uda lah kafe abis makanan...

Aku tengah berlapar dari tadi pagi...

Now this.

Not making up my mood today.

Darn.

Aku Masa Dulu?! (edited)

Biar post ni dalam bahasa Sabah+Melayu = Bahasa 1 Malaysia.

Aku campur sedikit Inggeris lah boleh kan?

Xmau pula orang cakap aku xda inglish edukesyen..

Ok,

Jap,

Nak tukar tajuk jap.

Ingat g dalam post aku yang lepas tu?

Ya...

Tadi pagi...secara x sengaja...

Aku tertekan.......

X sedar pun.

Dah jadi habit kan...

Aku termasuk facebook.....

Darn~~!!!!!

Aku tengok kejap jak.

Dalam 1-2 saat,

Pastu aku tutup.

X tengok notifikesyen pun.

Hahaha.

Hebat kan?

(Cehh padahal memang xda notifikesyen pun....)

Ok, kembali ke topik aku.

AMARAN: ENTRI KALI INI SANGAT PANJANG DAN PENUH DENGAN AKU MEMBEBEL DI SIANG HARI NI. SILA JANGAN BACA KALAU TIDAK SANGGUP. SEKIAN TERIMA KASIH!

Zaman aku dulu.

Zaman remaja...

(Habis aku sekarang bukan still remaja ka? ---->denying the fact I'm turning 20 soon.....sigh~)

Zaman remaja aku sangat best.

Boleh dikatakan aku popular lah di sekolah dulu.

Banyak peminat,

Mana-mana aku pergi mesti semua orang tengok aku,

Semua akan terpegun tengok aku,

Macam tak percaya ni aku depan mata diorang,

Siap ada yang gosok-gosok mata lagi!

Hah!

Pastu diorang prepare batu.

And then amik cangkul dari stor sekolah,

Patahkan kerusi kayu di kelas lama,

Pastu minta mancis dari peminat-peminat aku yang merokok,

Bakar kayu tu buat torch,

pastu.....

Semua berlari ke arah aku.........

Nak minta autograph lah tu..

Ceh pantang nampak orang unik macam aku,

manusia sekarang.... =p

Aku rasa aku popular mungkin pasal aku tinggi lampai macam model kot (tinggi 167cm jak pun!),

ye lah,

zaman-zaman remaja aku semua pompuan aku jumpa kecik-kecik jak.

Besfren aku dari sekolah menengah pun c Les (ya aku panggil dia Les) tinggi setakat 148cm jak.

Macam aku telah ditakdirkan ada kawan yang kecik-kecik dan comel ni..

(Eca pun mula perasan dan suka hati baca statement aku tu....)

Pastu mungkin sebab kening aku macam Demi Moore gitu.

Tebal-tebal dan memikat.

Miahahahahahahahahahahaha (ketawa terbahak-bahak terbatuk-batuk terkentut-kentut)

Zaman remaja aku pun masa aku paling kurus lah....

Aku rasa...

Sebab berat aku paling ringan masa tu...

57kg.

Ya ni sahaja berat aku paling ringan pernah aku dapat. Jangan harap aku akan jadi lagi ringan dari ni lagi!

Tapi ni tym form3-4 jak.

Pastu aku tambah suka makan. HAHAHA~

Zaman remaja aku juga,

zaman aku paling GEDIK.

Yes,

U heard me.

G.E.D.I.K.

Jom eja sama2!

G untuk Gunung!

E untuk Epal!

D untuk Dinding!

I untuk Ikan!

K untuk...uhm...Koruk?

Now what does that spell?

GEDIK!

Pandai anak-anak semua...

Ya aku mengaku aku gedik dulu.

Gedik in terms of amik gambar lah..

Haha~

Ni pun pasal pengaruh kawan.

Alah korang suma mesti tau kan apa maksud aku di sni?

Yang amik gambar angle mesti dari atas tu.

Pastu buat-buat muka ala-ala kiut gitu.

Kembungkan pipi pa suma tu.

Buat peace sign g.

Kalau x dapat buat pipi kembung yang kiut,

Muncungkan mulut pula macam itik,

kalau x pun macam ikan.

Kiut konon!

Zaman-zaman dulu xda fesbuk.

Aku dulu guna maispes and frenster.

HAHA~

Aku dulu amik pose kiut-kiut (kiut lah sangat!) gitu siap ada sifu lagi tolong ajarkan!

Queen of poses,

Itu lah nama gelaran aku bagi dia.

Aku mula2 suka amik gambar candid orang, pastu amik gambar pemandangan.

Tiba2 aku mula menjinakkan diri dengan maispes dan frenster ni.

So,

Since I was young and curious,

Aku belajar lah amik gambar2 gedik dari dia.

Lama2 aku jadi pro.

Aku letak dalam maispes dan frenster gambar2 aku.

Banyak orang add. (Mostly lelaki lah. Motipp pompuan add pompuan bila gmbar macam tu?)

Ok, aku tipu.

X juga banyak lah orang add...

Sebab aku jarang online,

kalau ada orang add pun aku xdapat accept.

Tapi gambar aku memang feymes lah. (Perasan nak mampos!)

Lama-lama,

aku berhenti amik gambar gedik.

Aku insaf....

Insaf...

Insaf...

(memegang tasbih, mood kembali ke jalan sebenar)

Lagipun aku rasa lah kan,

xyah lah mau letak gambar melebih-lebih tu.

Kalau cantik pun xyah lah share2 ngan orang.

Biar orang yang jumpa ko tu jak yang perasan.

Lagi best kalau ko x heboh ngan 1 dunia ko tu cantik o kiut pa suma.

Orang tau, tapi kadang2 orang xnak amik tau.

Lagipun,

we'll never know who's watching our pictures......

Kot-kot orang miang.........

=='''

Eh napa lak tukar jadi topik gedik ni?

Hahahaaha~~

Kay,

for old time sake,

biar aku letak gambar aku SS sini!

Mau?

MAU?

Mau lah~~~

Nah kan memang mau....

Ok2...

Enjoy~

Gedik tak gedik tak? Amik gambar pura-pura inesen gitu.. hahah

Yea I sure know how to pose. Hoho~~

=p

20 Day Challenge

I'm challenging myself.

I've decided not to log in to my facebook for 20 days.

At least until exams finish.

Miahaha~~

Gila tak?

Nope.

Just challenging myself.

Pushing myself to the limit.

Tengok dapat ke tak aku buat.

Oh,

To do the facebook thingy is...uhm......easy lah...

Maybe.

But then I've also decided to refrain myself from playing my guitar for that period of time also.

INI LAGI LAH AKU RASA MUSTAHIL MAU BUAT!

Huhu~~

Takpa.....I should challenge myself...

Ya...

Most of U would probably be asking, (aku rasa xda pun yang tertanya...perasan jap yang aku ni feymes...)

why in the world would I do this?

Well,

the facebook thing is reasonable lah.

The guitar thing might not.

Because that's the only thing,

beside facebook,

that can actually alleviate my stress of studying.

But it is also a reason for me not studying.

HAHA~~

So,

let the game begins!!!

Ada idea lagi tak apa benda aku patut challenge diriku yang serba kekurangan ni? (Ngehehe~)

P/S: Aku cari2 dalam web tadi pasal mnemonics pa benda suma tu.

Found some really interesting webs.

I'll give 'em here.

See if it works for some of U guys. ^^

O yea, there's an ebook too.

LOVE IT!!

Anatomy Mnemonics

Medical Mnemonics

Ebook!

Yang ebook tu download ah sendiri. Kejap jak tu.... ^^

"S4 is what you wipe, S5-put your finger in it!"

-----------Dermatomes.... If U know what it means. HAHA

Toodles!

Say What I Need To Say

Say- John Mayer

Take all of your wasted honor

Every little past frustration

Take all of your so-called problems,

Better put 'em in quotations

Say what you need to say [x8]

Walking like a one man army

Fighting with the shadows in your head

Living out the same old moment

Knowing you'd be better off instead,

If you could only . . .

Say what you need to say [x8]

Have no fear for giving in

Have no fear for giving over

You'd better know that in the end

Its better to say too much

Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking

And your faith is broken

Even as the eyes are closing

Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say [x24]

Source: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/johnmayer/say.html

=p

I'd Suck On Dates

Ok I know I HAVEN'T been on a date before IN MY LIFE.

Kalau setakat jalan ngan kawan2 adalah, tapi kalau jalan ngan orang yang spesel memang tak PERNAH. Nak tau kenapa? Sebab aku xda orang spesel. Alah nak spesel sangat tu buat apa gak? Kawan2 pun cukup lah.

(Tangan yang mengkhianati kata hati...)

Huahaha~~

Rilek, aku main2 jak.

O and I'm writing this because I got bored of studying.

I know I know final exams are just around the corner.

But it won't hurt to do things like these once in a while right?

=p

Ok, why I'd suck when going on dates?

Well,

I'm not much of a "date" person.

Wait, how would you define a "date" anyway?

Ah lantaklah..

Usually on dates, (aku tengok dari wayang omputih lah...)

couples would uhm...go and watch a movie and such. Eat together lah... Hahaha kay a few reason why those things won't work with me.

1. Movies.

Yea, I love watching movies. But when I watch it with friends, I WON'T SHUT UP. I won't stop criticizing the movie or actors or the props they use; ANYTHING that I can criticize at. That's why watching a movie with me won't be a good idea.

2. Dining.

Yea, I love foods....But I have my own timing for those kinds of LAVISH eating. Sometimes, I don't eat. No, I CAN'T eat. And also at times, I'll eat like I never eat before. I don't know why, it's just me....recently... Hohoho~ So if U catch me at the wrong time, be prepared to enjoy the food alone. ^^

3. Holding hands.

Why is this even in my list? I know I'm a Muslim and all, so let's just say I'm listing this as a future reference to my future hubby. Ngehehehe~ Ok, holding hands, uhm...not much of a big fan in SKINSHIP. If Ur a girl, then Ok lah... Haha~ (P/S: I'm straight.)

4. Flowers.

Uhm...From some of the movies I watch, the boyfriend buys a bouquet of roses for the girlfriend...usually when picking her up for the date, but occasionally on dates and also after dates. Ok, I like flowers...but I only like to watch it from afar and admire it's beauty. Don't give one that I have to care for and maintain for a long time. I'm lucky my plant in my room is still alive after MONTHS of not watering it. Luckily, it's a CACTUS.

P/S: I prefer orchids to roses. ^^

5. Talking.

I'M BEST AT THIS. HAHA~ I'd usually talk for hours without shutting up and stopping to catch a breath every now and then. Yep. Be prepared also. U'd get really REALLY annoyed. So, U better have a way to shutting me up. ^^

6. Shopping.

Uhm... If my future hubby is the shop-till-U-drop type of metrosexual guy, well then, HELLO and GOODBYE! Don't let the door hit U on the way out!

=.=''

I'm not much of a shopping girl. Yea girls. Believe it. I know some girls take shopping as a stress reliever, but I don't enjoy it that much.. Unless....Unless....I'M SHOPPING FOR GADGETS. Hoho~ So, if U wanna shop for clothes and all, go ahead. Meet me at the Apple Store in an hour, can?

7. I got nothing more to list.

Hey, I've never been on a date before aite? So I don't know. Haha

I don't know how these "dates" go, but I'm pretty sure it'll be a very VERY long time before I'd have a real one. Hahaha~

But then, who knows.

People say what we say and do now won't be the same tomorrow.

I don't know.

Lalala~~

My Mom Told Me

Yesterday I asked my mom after hearing my sisters talking about it.

Me: Mom, what are my good and bad qualities?

Mom: Uhm… (she’s driving at this time) Well, Ur good qualities are that U are a very patient...

Me: That's all?

Mom: And U are helpful.

Me: And?

Mom: Uhm.... and very considerate towards others. That's all I can think of now..

Me: Really? My bad ones pula?

Mom: Uhm….U get upset easily, U hide Ur feelings, Ur quiet but lethal, and Ur just a bomb waiting to explode. When U get upset, U get REALLY REALLY upset. U like sulking a lot. It’s like, nothing happened, but U are actually sulking. U get upset even for the slightest thing people do.

Me: Oh…

When talking bout my good qualities, my mom hesitated a lot. But when it comes to my bad ones, DENGAN PENUH BERSEMANGAT MAK AKU BERCERITA!! Cis…..

Xpa lah... Nobadi isseu perpek kan? (Sila baca dengan penuh kegete'an...sekian terima kasih)

Balik Balik

BALIK BALIK BALIK BALIK BALIK BALIK.

AKU BALIK BALIK BALIK BALIK BALIK.

BALIK BALIK BALIK~

O YEA BALIK BALIK~~

YEA BABYBEE BALIK BALIK BALIK~~

(Inner monologue : UR NEVER GONNA STUDY THERE. TOO MUCH DISTRACTION. DARN~)